It was an opportunity to surrender a bit of what was mine, to make even one other person feel good about themselves."Since going public with her subsequent relationships, Kristen reflects that in an ideal world, while she "would have kept [her] life private forever," she was ultimately confronted with the choice of not being able to "walk outside holding somebody’s hand, as I’m followed everywhere" or not being able to be fully present in a relationship."When I was dating Rob, the public were the enemy—and that is no way to live," she adds.
And Kristen makes a point to emphasize that her going public with her relationships today has nothing to do with a moment of "Now I’ve realized who I am!
Our fall Women's Fashion issue cover story, on Kristen Stewart, is online at now. A post shared by T: The NYTimes Style Magazine (@tmagazine) on 'It wasn't real life anymore. It's not that I want to hide who I am or hide anything I'm doing in my life.
It would be silly to say I don’t care what people think of my work and who I am, but stuff is polarizing, period.” Further recalling what it was like when she became an overnight A-lister thanks to her role as Bella Swan in the book-turned-movies, Stewart adds, "I used to try too hard, because I was nervous. I’ve just grown out of it." In an exclusive interview with ET in October, Stewart also opened up about how she's come to deal with being in the public eye.
"I think it takes a minute to sort of acclimate to communicating with so many people at one time, with like, 'the masses,' you know," she shared.
"I know people love to say, 'Oh, she doesn't give a...' like, no, I totally do, man!
The couple dated for five years but she eventually found their romance - which hit the rocks when she was unfaithful with her Snow White And The Huntsman director Rupert Sanders - stopped being 'real life' and became 'entertainment' for people.'People wanted me and Rob to be together so badly that our relationship was made into a product,' the 26-year-old dished to The New York Times' T magazine in an interview for its Fall Women's Fashion edition cover shoot.
The 26-year-old actress shared that she "didn’t talk about my first relationships that went public because I wanted things that are mine to be mine.
I hated it that details of my life were being turned into a commodity and peddled around the world." But as she's gotten older — and experienced firsthand more of the positive and negative sides to superstar levels of fame — she has realized that relationship struggles are a universal experience, and they affect "a greater number of people than just me.
currently dating model Stella Maxwell, and Rob is supposedly still with FKA Twigs (even though she was spotted with another man and Rob could hardly confirm their engagement)...
but according to the source Kristen is still "carrying a torch" for Rob.
co-star, Robert Pattinson, she's altered her outlook when it comes to talking about her love life.